BLEHHHH

Fat doesn't look good on anyone. I was just looking through Glamour magazine and some other blogger's pictures and it dawned on me, again, that Fat is disgusting.  Clothes look so much nicer on thin. Sure there are clothes for bigger women but there are so many more options for thin women. Plus, (no pun intended) when you're thinner, you're more graceful, and clothes flow better. 

Just an observation for today.

Still not SKINNY

I sat down to my computer and it dawned on me I haven't posted on this blog in a long time. I have given up being regular which is also the story with my weight loss adventures.
I have started this little program in town which sets you up with a registered dietitian.  Three meetings later, I lost 7 lbs.  Yay me! but it's not enough. I am 7 lbs lighter than I have been in the past 3 years almost, and it does feel good. No one could tell yet b/c it's so little but the scale tells the truth so I am celebrating this small 7 lbs accomplishment.  

I was told by my dietitian that 1) I NEED to make a meal plan for a week, breakfast, lunch and dinner, and 2) I need to keep a journal.  She also recommended that I look up a group "Overeaters Anonymous".  Let me tell you how embarrassed I was.  I like belonging to groups and all but I belonging to the above kind of hit a nerve.  I looked it up online and more than anything, I wanted to cry, again.  I was pissed with myself, again. I was disgusted with myself, again.  

I quickly got over it and went back to thinking positive thoughts.  It just so happens that a cousin of mine stopped by and told me she loves drinking veggie juices. Long story short, I'm going to give it a try.  There are a few books out there that she recommended.  I will NOT be replacing all my meals with juice b/c that's just crazy and  I know I could never do that.  I just want to try the juices to see how I feel.  My cousin claims that since she started, she feels better, has more energy and has not gained weight.  I'm all for that. So here's to juices! YAY!

It's too cold outside

It’s too damn cold outside. Yes, I’d love to go outside for a walk. But it’s too cold. It’s even to cold to go outside, get in the car and go to the gym. I’m staying in. I will be making yummy dinner today. 

Chicken with Spinach and Mushrooms.

 YUM!

P90X -OH BOY

I started P90X. 

It kicked my butt.

 I love it.

 I'm sore all over but I will do it again 

 and again

 and again.

Ready... set.... BRING IT!

OK people... here goes.....

I'm starting P90X.  I know, I know. It's hard and it will kick my ass, and I haven't stuck to anything before. I know all that.

I hope that this program will help me though.  I am overwhelmed with it but willing to discover parts of it as I go. I did my reading, my shopping and my workout clothes. I am also planning on stopping my WW membership because along with my meal planning and prepping and shopping and stuff, I can't keep up with tracking those points online. 

I'm scared as hell, not of the ass kicking from the program, but of the fact that I could potentially end up quitting the program.  I suck at commitments and sticking to things.  I realize that I need a strong support system and cheerleaders every step of the way (I know, I sound like a baby).  

google.com This image makes me really uncomfortable. It's true though, isn't it?

This weight thing - it's a SOB.  You eat, you gain, you feel like crap so you eat, then you gain some more. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. 

I'm here to change it.

BRING IT!